Madeline Autumn-Rose @gewt@san-junipero.gimme-sympathy.org

this house has LASERDISC _PORN_

*sends hugs from 1997*

people sometimes ask why the copyright date on dev.gimme-sympathy.org is 1997 and my response is "it's when i live"

come back to 1997 with me. it's where i live

i sleep in a room with a lot of laserdiscs

my tv has a laserdisc player connected to it

i'll stick around

anyways, how is everyone

ideation is baaaaaaack tonight :D

i am so tired of my insurance stresses, my addiction, my situation

just want to take too much shit and die

hello!

i'm a cat!

hello

potato

doing a bit better today

oh how i hate aiddiction.

it's so hard to fight. ><

it keeps getting harder and harder to fight

why did i have to get addicted to _2_ drugs at the same time ><

prescription doses are feeding the dependence, but the addiction makes me want more

there are people i love that keep me here but i don't want to be here

i feel just awful

i don't like myself, i don't like my actions, i don't like my mistakes, i don't like what i don't say no to.

i hate being addicted to drugs, i hate not having self control. i hate how my brain has just been destroyed

it's be so easy to just...not. not anything anymore. i'm so tired. i'm so done.

i'm scared of my own mind, my own delusions.

my good fails to outweigh my bad

rough day brain-weather-wise.

not sure if it's the meds, the idle depression, the awful news of late.

just overall bleh and very sads